NOT THE MUMBAI OF MY DREAMS...

Its been a tragic three days...the worse in India's History...left me feeling griefed....shocked and and in deep disbelief of the incidents that have been happening.

THIS IS FOR THOSE INDIANS WHO HAVE PUT ME TO SHAME FOR BEING A CITIZEN OF THE SO CALLED MAXIMUM CITY

I AM ASHAMED TODAY:-

Of the Terrorists Who Have been responsible for the gory bloodbath

Of the numerous people who attribute religions and castes and countries to the Chicken Brained F****rs

Of the People who Are Enjoying Spreading Panic Through False Rumours in Such Times

Of The People who've Sent Me Heartless SMSes About Parties in the TAJ at a time when People are dying there

Of the People and Headless Chickens Who Do not respect the martyr of Countless Defence Personnel and Ask For Defence Reforms

Of The Governemnt Which Cannot provide proper ammenities to the officers fighting for protecting our lives.

Of the people who think The officers Are not thinking and not doing Enough For saving our lives and THINK THEY ARE NOT FAST ENOUGH

Of the People Who compare Our Forces With Foriegn Army Forces Instead Of Appluading and Encouraging them.

Of The People who are More Worried about a Holiday at work rather than the Bravehearts fighting out there for more than two days.

Of the Government Illiterate Babus who think are lives are just worth Rs. 5 Lakhs and nothing more than that at all

Of Politicians who hide away when the Non-Maharashtrians they hated are actually saving our lived by laying their lives on the line

Of The so called Fast Pace Life which does not even reflect back on the losses of our past and the bravery of our heroes

Of the People In the Country Who always have a short memory and keep forgetting such incidents and never learn from them

Of the Politicians who do not Have the Brains And Guts and Freedom To eliminate out Terrorists without any Hint of Negotiation

Of the Politicians Who cannot even unify at this time of grief and end up playing opposition games for Votes

Of the Politicians Who've Started politicizing the grief and events on basis of caste,religion creed and Opposition Faults

And Lastly of the Citizens who complain that we are over populated and badly ruled and cannot use the population for selecting and generating capable heroes and leaders ruling us

I AM REALLY PROUD OF ALL THE ARMED FORCES WHO HAVE STAYED UP MORE THAN THREE DAYS FOR SAVING MY LIFE DESPITE NOT KNOWING AND CARING ABOUT MY RELIGION OR CASTE OR SEX OR COLOR OR CREED

R.I.P.

SINDERELLA…HAPPY WITH ANOTHER PRINCE

Ever imagined a fairy tale with the script’s lead hero changed?

To all, it would seem like a blurry nightmare being blazed.

Always felt it was easy to luv and then forget,

No, the shreds of my broken dreams still cut my heart

Fell in love with an angel brought down to the earth,

She was the best person I had been with right from my birth

It was a wonderful time with her sparkling smiles,

Just felt like heaven with her during those times

Life with her just seemed like a lovely fairy tale,

Never realized it had a script headed towards a fail

Distances never present between us suddenly seemed to crop up,

Now, two friends never caught up even over a cup of coffee

She just seemed to slowly drift away from my heart’s sea,

Somebody else started to be that source of her glee.

Had told her many times that I felt it for her a lot,

Then a Romeo- Villain stepped into God’s infamous plot

She just seemed very gale being with her life’s Mr. Right,

Just felt I was losing her more with every passing night.

Had promised myself I just wanted to see her gleams,

But it just hurt badly to see her live up another’s guys dreams.

All I ever wanted was to ensure she smiles throughout our life,

It feels like daggers seeing her in his arms as his wife.

I tried to endure the sight of seeing her happy minus me,

Still the thought of being closer to her body never seemed to flee.

Wanted to wish her luck for the rest of her life’s story,

Mine seemingly looked like a bad end to a nightmare so gory

Now just seem to realize the world is indeed fully round,

U love a person but can never let her love another person.

Envisioned a story where I was my Sinderella’s Prince Charming

The climax turned in reverse with Prince Right’s entry coming.

Sinderella started to live happily ever after with a stranger hero,

The distraught prince stand in disbelief holding a life mangled

P.S. The spelling sinderella is not a poor spelling mistake but had been done to ensure it bears no resemblance to its original counterpart and has been purposely done to encode some information.

SMALL KINGSIZE MOMENTS

I wander frantically for achieving larger than life heights,
Ever so aimlessly trotting on the
clichéd, hard, rewarding paths

Or getting to the results I am so lost,
An eventual gain ends up seeming meager at most

The desire to be a class apart is so scorching,
The ecstasy from the smallest of things seems so eluding

It’s a desperate attempt to reach slippery tops,
Blinding away from right-wrongs to miss the flops

Ever wondered about a million minute smiles?
This world’s surely got all fantasies from flowers to wines

Try a moment gazing at the countless stars,
Leave your mind unbound for breaking those bars

We have been happily connecting to the world,
Losing that slightest touch with the small surround

Try spending an afternoon at the park with the kids,
Enjoy their enchanting smiles at the swings and the slides

Start communicating with nature’s finest masterpieces,
Find a rhythm in the chirping of all the bird species

Gift that special girl a hundred of priceless surprises
Shower her with love and treasure her smiles till your ashes

Share your triumphs with all in the family,
Spend every viable moment with them from busy, short lives

Color your life with the shades of the rainbow,
Nature’s got millions of small puzzles enchanting life’s flow

Untie the brain knots and forget all past tracks,
Live through life’s unquenched search for
"SMALL KINGSIZE MOMENTS"

KILL THE BEAUTY

You seemed to be the beauty lasting till eternity,
Sorry baby, u just triggered a blurry killing of beauty

You tried to break a happy and enchanted heart,
It is going to start an avalanche of destruction

Our lives are not going to be the same again,
Will make sure you just see hatred and pain

Broken hearts rarely leave such a bloody trail,
But mine will definitely make love’s beliefs fail

Have just realized beauty s surely skin deep,
Will remove all traces of shallow beauty in a blip

Don’t want to ever see those enchanting eyes again,
They just remind me of a gory nightmare

Will get you rid of that flashy smile forever,
Prefer being blind rather than seeing it again

I want to destroy those memories we had together,
Doesn’t matter if I stop believing in relationships altogether

All I want is to direct a new story of our lives,
Its script will ensure savage destruction till the end

Thanks a zillion for giving me my life’s new aim,
Swear on my life, nobody’s going to ever love again

Just about “I” & “u”

Just about “I” & “U”

Never saw the spark between “WE”,
All I saw was a distant “I” and “U”

Just wanted a sweet life to cherish with U,
And U gave an abrupt ending to my dream view

I dreamt of WE having a family together,
U ended up tearing the dream into tethers

I could not ever take my eyes of your face,
In the end U never wanted to see mine again

I Used to feel endless hours with you were too less,
But saw U got bored in a second’s mess

I saw those dreams every moment for your success,
U said my frenzied thoughts got U stressed

I Lifted U up so you could reach the stars,
U couldn’t care less by calling it a farce

I Always wanted to treasure your million $ smiles,
Our friends said U got pleased hearing my cries

Wanted to give you profuse happiness at every possibility,
U just asked about the end to this frantic stupidity

Loved the thought of spending an evening with U at the beach
U always came up with excuses which never ceased

Simply was myself being with my Heart’s Empress,
U just wanted me to get on par with the rest

Wanted to see my life’s angel’s wishes getting fulfilled,
U conveyed your wish was to never be around me

Secretly wishes to hold your body close to mine,
U just refused to let those distances even shrivel

Almost felt your lovely lips resting on mine,
Too bad, U just cringe whenever near me

Just wanted to enjoy a naughty moment in the dark,
But U just cared a lot about people seeing us together

All I ever asked for was a fairytale story for real,
Why did it seem a scary nightmare to U?

Smiled at the thought of my Princess Juliet,
U didn’t give a thought about your Romeo’s heart dying

Was a thought of two lovers together so harmful,
That U scripted an end to our friendly anecdote?

Now I promise there won’t be a knock on your heart again,
Please keep Ur promise of not returning to my life

Sure, a spineless end to our epic has been breached,
U’ve just taught the world a lesson never to be forgot

Love has just torn apart and ravaged a lovely life,
Thank U for inspiring a zillion away from love’s abyss

A Helluva DAY

A Helluva DAY

14/5/08 and another four hours after that....is what I will remember for a long time.
A besetting example of a day of hope, aspirations, nerves, zero pressure moments, big energetic highs, rock bottom lows are just few feelings that could describe my day.
It was all associated with the pursuit of one single elusive seat in a college....in layman terms a luxurious seat in an mba college.
Both the highs and lows originated a week back when my career goal of doing an mba seemed sliding far....far away from me an i was just trying to hold onto the last possible amount of positive hope that i could gather from the happenings and the imagination of a better future.
the day before it, just ended with a stupid sense of nervousness of what meant to me as the last ditch attempt at proving my mettle after a spate of successful results in the written examinations.
Had slept late the last night after preparing for my group discussion and personal interview at the cet centre.
a strange sense of a child-like enthusiasm and anxiety englufed me when i got up on D-day.
Right from the moment I got up I started recollecting whatever facts i had read the last few days about so many subjects right from the us recession..to the cliched subject of sez in india.
It was one of those rare ocassions where I reached one hour before time at my centre.
Strangely, had a strong sense of determination in me just to prove i could make it finally at one of those seats I wanted.
Everything right from the gd to the pi went picture perfect according to how i wanted and picturised it to be.
I just felt like being a director of a big time yash raj production film....in full control of all of its characters and the story's fate, everything just seeimg so rosy and amazingly easy.
Finished all of that yaaaaawwwwnigly easy stuff and moved towards home at around 1 in the afternoon humming and listening to fast and chirpy songs all the way there.
Would just have to go fast forward with the rest of the day whcih was just full of doldrums and boring outings....so i would just zoom and snap ahead to around 12 oclock in the night..
Strangely enough i had chosen to remain online a bit late in the night for a change and browsed through the sites i cud find and caiught up wih friends.
it was abt 12 30 when i saw the TISS- community on orkut being plagued by chatters frantically discussing abt the results being out.
Suddenly a funny sense of nervousness and trepidation overcame me.just bulleted my way to the tiss website...crackign my knuckles..hands trembling ab it and legs shaking.
A frantic search through the list put up resulted into one of those trough like lows of my life...a rejection form the institute...suddenly all of the funand the enthusiasm hit an all-time low...
The day which started off at a searing high of emotions....just petered off with me having a oblivion like feeling...suddenly felt like all bells calling for armegeddon started ringing....
The incident just left with me very few options on my side and a very small straw to hold onto before falling onto the cliff.
But suddenly and surprisingly a search for a sense of postivity also surged inside me..seeing other people also down with sadness just like me, just made me try fto make them feel better.
An almost artifical sense of optimisim prevailed over my mind so as to make others feel better about their rejection at tiss.Silly funny statements and motivational drugeries was what i tried to get poeple happy again....
Slept a bit late in the night just worried about what the future holds for me....
Was thinking anbout thsi rule of life which says every failure in life will carry an equal amount of opporunity with it...throwing open a new door of sucess and opporunity for you.wanted to believe in it pretty badly
The late sense of optimism developed int he night just left me with a quote in my mind:-
"TISS ho Yaa Miss Life Mein Hamesha Rahega FiZZZZzZZZZ....."

ALL I ever had was u

Nothing’s left in my Life’s Diaries,
Baby its just ur memories.

U came & broke my heart,
Like a wild breeze tearing apart.

Thinking about the times that were best,
Dreaming about each other we just cudn’t rest.

Can still feel the warmth of ur hug,
The shine u spread by ur sweet smug.

Like ur lips touching mine ever so slightly,
Lost in ur eyes shining so brightly.

Those beaches where we walked hand in hand,
& those drives which never seemed to end.

I miss those dinners that ended late into the nights,
Trips to places where we wished there was no lights

Can’t believe I cant c those movies with u no more,
& Flirt with u like we’ve sated for the first time.

Baby can I get those beautiful dreams back,
Can I just live 1 more moment with U.

Just wanted to be the Romeo of ur life,
Ended up losing the diamond of my life.

Can’t believe the fairy tale wasn’t meant to bloom.
Its surely true, ALL I ever had was u.